my giant teddy bear!

grasshoppers, king crab, and teddy bears

most amazing king crab i've ever had...

really...i mean it. AMAZING!

now this on the other hand...it's pretty disgusting. fried grasshoppers. BLEH!

raw beef and grasshoppers, oh btw...this is a wedding banquet.

bum's gonna buy me a big teddy bear. this one is really cute but smaller than the white one. i don't know whether i should have him buy this one, or the GIANT white one. the GIANT white one is bigger than me if i'm curled up. i'll take a picture of that one next time. oh and bum bought my mom a shirt. we went shopping today, i was gonna buy it for her but he said, no no i want to buy it. heh...he picked it out too. hopefully she likes it.

growth

compromise, understanding, and trust. i must learn these things.

Happy White Day!

i need to change my attitude...at first i kept thinking what other people wanted me to do. and what's ok and not ok to do. i didn't think about what i really wanted. hearing that i might lose one of the most important things in my life was shocking and made me open my eyes. knowing that you've changed and hearing it from someone else is completely different. i am not the same person i was last year, and i hate that. i want to be strong, i want to be happy, and i know it'll be hard sometimes but knowing that i have help counts for a lot. i've spent too many nights "social" drinking. i'm tired of being sad or angry over little things. so i've decided to be positive...and make some changes.

please tell me that if the glass is half full, someone won't come and suddenly knock it over.

(side note: white day is 3/14. it's when the boys give girls candy. valentine's day is when the girls give boys chocolate. celebrated in both japan and korea. poor girls have to wait a month to see if the guys return their feelings.)

i want my friends...

i used to be such a happy person...(most of the time) haha...now i guess i'm a different kind of happy?