Becoming Superhuman

I just started reading The 4-Hour Body. Granted it is geared towards men, I think if I follow the rules I might be able to get results as well.

5 rules:

RULE 1: AVOID "WHITE" CARBOHYDRATES.

RULE 2: EAT THE SAME FEW MEALS OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

RULE 3: DON'T DRINK CALORIES.

RULE 4: DON'T EAT FRUIT.

RULE 5: TAKE ONE DAY OFF PER WEEK.

Wish me luck. This started yesterday. It will continue until I go to Taiwan (which is my break from reality) and then continue when I get back to Korea. 

Cardio Health

Carrot and apple juice. Tastes great! Oh and I just realized I can create my own salads at this place in Shinsegae. It's great! I got chicken, chick peas, sundried tomatoes, cucumbers and a hard boiled egg on a bed of spinach. AMAZING! I'm gonna pick another one up tomorrow on my way home ^^

I just realized that I'm in much better shape that I was like a month ago. I ran 5km easily today and I didn't feel it in my muscles nor was I even short of breath. I didn't really feel like I'd worked out but it was a strange feeling. I hate running so it was very good to not feel like I was actually working too hard on it. My wrist is acting up a little bit. I don't know what's wrong with it so I don't know how I'm going to be able to train at kickboxing this week. Wish me luck...maybe it's mental. Maybe my stress is acting up in a physical way. Regardless...it still feels disgusting like someone overstretched something in it.

This was my lunch today...I didn't eat the potatoes or the rice. The pumpkin was really good...I gave the one drenched in sauce away :P The grilled chicken was good too. It was spicy so it made me feel full. 

Emotional Breakdown

I moved into my new place and moved all my things and memories out. It was very emotional...so I broke my cleanse. I'm just trying to eat healthy now. I'm back on caffeine. To celebrate I drank a double shot Americano. ^^

I had a Salmon and asparagus salad for lunch. It was really good! Next time I have an emotional breakdown, I need to hide all the chocolate in the house.

Almost halfway there Day 13

I'm suffering some weakness today. I really wanted to eat something that wasn't part of the cleanse. I fought it off by eating a handful of blueberries. I had a pretty emotional day today. I had to see the ex and go to the office and turn in the papers. They gave us a date...Monday 10/15.

I think my emotional state had something to do with the weakness I felt with wanting to shove a bunch of chocolate in my mouth. I swear to you I feel like a completely different person. In about 5 months I managed to change my mind a million times, spiral into the depths of emotional hell and slowly climb back up. It reminds me of that wall in the latest Batman movie that he had to climb in order to get out. I don't think I'm quite out yet, but I'm getting there. Slowly but surely I am resurfacing, hopefully as a better person. When I walk around town I feel like there are so many emotional land mines. I'm just really careful not to step in them. Now I'm moving across town on Sunday, hopefully it'll be a lot easier after that. I feel emotionally numb, I think there are just too many things to think about and so I don't remember how to feel anymore.

Will I ever get into another relationship? Find another job? Start another life? Get through this month without slipping back into the pits? I hope so because I'm going to be strong. Today when the man at the office looked me in the eyes and asked me, "Is this what you really want?" I said yes and will always say yes. I still stand by the fact that this is the best decision I've ever made in my life. When I looked at him today, it felt like we were strangers. A face that used to be so familiar to me, looked so different...like someone I'd seen for the first time and not someone I'd wanted to start a life together with. I guess people change, some just a little faster than others...

Wish me luck...I'm gonna need a lot of it.

aren't we so cute?

Sometimes I wish I was pretty instead of cute. Being cute just means people want to pinch your cheeks and mess with your hair or something. >.<

Overwhelmed

I went biking for about 3 hours yesterday. I rode across my city along the river. It was a lot of fun. My legs were sore yesterday, but they're ok for now. I've been extremely stressed with my life situation right now. I'm packing up my stuff bit by bit getting ready to move. I have my papers to file on Wednesday. I have a coworker who hates me for no real reason and I have to go to Seoul every weekend (not for fun, but for work). I have new classes with brand new students whose names I really want to remember and a 3 hour advanced English conversation class that I have to do all the prep work for.

I'm not complaining....I just wish that things would go smoothly and that this rough patch will quickly end. I know making lists helps so here goes...

Ridiculous list on things on my mind:

*Pack/Move (Sunday)
*File Papers (Tuesday)
*Seoul (Thursday for a bike ride with Man Yi along Han River)
*Seoul (Friday, Superstar Halla)
*Seoul/Ilsan (Every Sunday this month)
*Man Yi's Going away (Saturday)
*Seoul (9/24, 9/25) Don't need to translate in front of 5000 people, just gotta do the backstage stuff
*Memorize student names and make lesson plans for regular class
*Detox (Mind over matter...when I am finished, I will be stronger than before. Day 11, almost halfway there)
*Coffee (Something that shouldn't be on my mind, but because I'm emotionally in that state...it is)
*Court Date (Got the date...10/15 2:45PM)
*Kickboxing (Every day)
*Peter (an old friend who's hitting his own rough patch)
*Figuring out what I want to do with the rest of my life.
*Five year plan? I don't have one any more. Things never turn out the way I plan anyway.
*Money (I don't have any left...should I teach private lessons?)
*Visa (Will I get to stay till the end of my contract?)
*Make lesson plans for Advanced English Class

*Try not to let life overwhelm me