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All growed up

Haha...don't worry I grammatically screwed up the title on purpose!

I never knew how much work it takes to start a family. To find a place to live, fill it, have enough money to pay for all of it, and have enough left over for a wedding. Had I known this, maybe I would have spent more wisely when I was single...but then again let's me we're talking about!!

I still can't believe I'm getting married! It almost seemed like an impossible task for me to fall in love, stay in the relationship, and not lose my mind before the wedding! It was hard work I tell you! Relationships are probably one of the hardest things to maintain in life. Well healthy happy ones at least...convenient relationships don't count I think it's cheating!

Now if I look closely at my list of things I wanted to accomplish in the past five years...I think I did a decent job. I fell in love, learned a new language, lived in a new country, learned a new sport, played in a band in front of 500 people, fought in a kickboxing match (I lost but hey it was a great experience), made friends from around the world and most importantly found out more about myself than I ever knew existed. I think it was a very cool growing up experience for me. Not saying I'm finished, but just saying that I think I'm ready...finally, to start the next chapter of my life.

Parental control

the parents are coming in today... cleaning the apartment...sorta. rather be watching castle. i should have gone to taiwan instead. dinner with the boyfriend's family tomorrow too. eep...

Subconscious

I feel a bit of a weight around my heart but I can't seem to place a finger on why I am feeling this way.