karma pt. 2

of course i managed to get myself in more dumbass situations. i drank coffee, and soju last night after my concussion thinking hey...my bump went down i'm ok. boy was i wrong. i was laying in bed this morning and suddenly i felt cold. like really really really cold. and i was shivering. it was really bad. i refused to go to the hospital for about an hour then finally i felt so sick i had to go. i went and the doctor said i had a fever of 39 celcius. i was told that at 40 you fry your brain. hmm...anyway...i laid there with an iv in my arm for about an hour. my first iv, and my first concussion all in the same week! it's funny how fast karma works on me.

karma

so i was inline skating today and someone was pushing me. the faster we went the more i knew this was gonna turn out badly. and of course it did. my foot slipped and we both went tumbling. what does that mean? it means that my head eventually came into contact with the ground. it all happened so fast, i couldn't stop it. the huge smack of my head hitting the floor echoed. it was really a nasty fall. i had to get my first CT scan and go to an emergency room. when they did the xray and i stood up my head was spinning so much i couldn't walk, stand or do anything. i thought the night would end well, but it didn't. now i am lying in bed awake, worried about the day to come. i have a lump the size of an apple on the back of my head and 8 hours of teaching to do tomorrow. i feel like vomiting every 2 min. life is really...fucking me over. which is rightly deserved but man...fuck it hurts like a MOTHER FUCKER!

cyworld

so i've completed my transition into korean life. what was the final step? obtaining my cyworld account. hahaha

the pursuit of happiness

what is happiness? and how much of yourself do you have to give up before you can obtain it? quarterlife crisis in korea right now. again...haha it's such a regular thing for me. usually it comes after a long series of stupid decisions. and of course my mistakes get more and more retarded every time especially as i get older because i think that i am older now, i am able to make better decisions but i was wrong.

sorry for the lack of posting, i've been busy. tomorrow night my adult class student invited me to go to a MT which i think is a membership training? it's like...a retreat i think. we're going to chiak san. 40 people are going and we're gonna drink. hahaha what else do they do out here? i dunno but apparently drinking is a great bonding thing. hehe...it'll be nice to have a break from my other crazy life. :-X work has been stressful lately, but i'm trying to deal with it. having a social life helps. on the 29th we're supposed to go to the East Sea (Sea of Japan) for a trip with the music academy buddies. my guitar skills are getting better!! i've learned a slow blues solo and a fast blues solo. i never thought i'd be able to hammer on and pull off. and my drums....well it's coming along. i just learned the shake rhythm but it's hard. i get laughed at because it's hard to hit the ride. anyway...i'm getting sleepy....it's only 11. man...age is catching up to me?

inline skates and dog guilt

so i bought a pair of rollerblades in korea. i don't know why. they were pretty pricey but they're nice. there's an inline skating track at the stadium next to my apt complex. i went last night, and i wanted to go again this morning but it's snowing. i went with 2 people to go skating, one was very impressive! the other one...not so much. but it's nice that they put in the effort. school has been stressful because one of the teachers "resigned" and got kicked out of the apartment. she was my neighbor, sometimes i went over and sought solace. now not only do i get complained to by the boss, i am the middle person. sometimes i want to rip my hair out, sometimes i want to scream, i've been feeling restless which is why my social life is so important right now. but it's not like the social life is a good one either...it's another series of bad decisions but hey...i am at least learning many things on drums and guitar. maybe one day i will write about it.

currently i've been a bad dog owner. i haven't really been home to play with her because my social life has gotten the best of me. i am trying to find her a good home here so she can have a nice family to live with instead of me. it's not that i don't love her, it's just...i am in korea...i can't stay home with her everyday. especially on weekends when i want to go to seoul. i know i make bad decisions all the time, i really should think things through.

the 9th circle of hell